Crocodile Tears

Missing You....Here comes the Crocodile Tears
Curled up in your rocking chair, crying crocodile tears.
All of your things surround me, motionless.
My arms ache for you.
My heart doesn't beat the same.
I can't believe your gone.....still.
The phantom kicks have faded, oh how cruel those are.
A few pictures, a few items, a few memories, is all that is left.


THE Store...First Encounters
Walking into the store.
Am I going to see someone I haven't seen yet.
Heart starts to race.
I see her, it's going to be okay, just get it over with.
She looks my way, then looks away. (feel like I have in bold face letters on my forehead MY BABY DIED)
Walking down the isle, on a mission, to get in and get out.
I look down the isle and there is someone I didn't expect to see.
She hasn't acknowledged our loss.
Eye contact. Oh, shoot.
I said hi and she said hi back. 
I walk fast. 
Grab what I need and head to check out.
All the while hoping she doesn't come find me.
Why would she? She didn't even send a card. Why bother now?
Heart racing. Just get me out of here.
Maybe I should just put the item down and walk out the door.
Long line.
"I can help you over here."
Oh, thank goodness.
I have the correct change in hand and I'm out of there.
Don't know if I will go there again. 

 "Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time"

'Holding onto Hope'

There's got to be more to LIFE than THIS.

I'll love you forever baby boy!! Mommy