I Planned For...I Got.I
planned for mommy groups.
I got
baby loss support groups.
I
scheduled for bring your baby to yoga classes.
I got
unpack your grief yoga workshops.
I hoped
for new mommy friends.
I got
new mommy friends with dead babies like me.
I
thought I would get congratulations cards with balloons.
I got
condolence cards with sympathy, of course.
I
bought diapers, that I won't open.
I have
ovulation tests, that I dread having to use.
I saw
play dates in my future.
I now
have graveyard visits.
I
prepared for breastfeeding.
I got
engorged breasts instead.
I was
dreading sleepless nights.
I get
to hide away and sleep all day.
I
waited for walks with the stroller through the park.
I get
walks with grief instead.
I
pictured putting her down for naps.
I get
restless nights forever.
I
dreamed of holding her in my arms.
Instead,
I get to hold her only in my heart.
Written by Lindsey @ www.stillbornandstillbreathing.com
Serenity Prayer
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference."
Sunday, September 4, 2016
5 years in heaven
5.....you should be a 5 year old, fun, loving, very energetic boy running around in our home chasing after your siblings.
The hurt & pain are still immensely felt. There are no words to describe it.
I just can't believe 5 years have gone by since I held & kissed your beautiful face.
I love & miss you so very much! Your sister & brother speak your name & know you are a huge part of our family. Oh, how it breaks my heart to hear your sister say she wants you to come to our house and play. She says she wants to see you and hug you. I do too sweetie, me too! Sissy can't wait for your birthday party. She sees your cake decorations and says its for Aidyn's birthday party. What she doesn't quite understand yet is you will not physically be "here" for it. Ugh.....its so very hard!
I love you forever baby boy! My heart aches for you and always will because your the piece of my heart that lives in heaven.
Happy 5th birthday in heaven! I know it will be a glorious day rejoicing with Jesus, angels, all the other babies, & your relatives.
Hugs & kisses sweet boy
Love you to heaven and back
Momma
The hurt & pain are still immensely felt. There are no words to describe it.
I just can't believe 5 years have gone by since I held & kissed your beautiful face.
I love & miss you so very much! Your sister & brother speak your name & know you are a huge part of our family. Oh, how it breaks my heart to hear your sister say she wants you to come to our house and play. She says she wants to see you and hug you. I do too sweetie, me too! Sissy can't wait for your birthday party. She sees your cake decorations and says its for Aidyn's birthday party. What she doesn't quite understand yet is you will not physically be "here" for it. Ugh.....its so very hard!
I love you forever baby boy! My heart aches for you and always will because your the piece of my heart that lives in heaven.
Happy 5th birthday in heaven! I know it will be a glorious day rejoicing with Jesus, angels, all the other babies, & your relatives.
Hugs & kisses sweet boy
Love you to heaven and back
Momma
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